Was thinking of my comments on the life of Jacob, and the comments of his life by Jacob

“The years of my pilgrimage are a hundred and thirty. My years have been few and difficult, and they do not equal the years of the pilgrimage of my fathers.” (Gen 47:9)

In a way, Jacob was quite a prize fighter isn’t it? I am certain he is not hesitant about it.. until he was 90.. Considering all the prize he had wanted, The firstborn rights, the blessing, the beautiful Rachel, a flock of sheep and goats. The name of Jacob means “He grabs” or “Supplanter” When he was in his mothers womb, he was fighting with his brother to come out first.. He lost, and he still did not give up, he held on to Esau’s heel.

I am a Hesitant Prize Fighter, but in a way, everyone seems to accuse me of chasing after a worldly prize, higher pay, higher rank and not being satisfied with my life.. And now suddenly I am place in such a situation where I am helpless to solve some of my problems.. The scoffers may tell me that “Look at where your worldly pursuits got you into”.

At all these times, I realised that God has never never left me, he had indeed protected me, from many things that happens.. God already warned that my trip to this country will be a hard one, and it will be filled with many trials and God asked me if I would still take on this journey.. Innocently I answered yes..

This song, Journey from Corrinne May captured most of my feelings in this trip.. I notice that she was singing about Jesus.. (Since no other people paid at Calvary except Jesus) .. So let us just enjoy this song. This song is featured in the Taiwanese Drama “Dolphin Bay”

Title : Journey
Artist: Corrinne May

It’s a long long journey
Till I know where I’m supposed to be
It’s a long long journey
And I don’t know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It’s a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I’ve spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what’s my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you’ll be standing by my side
It’s a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes I feels no one understands
I don’t even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can’t see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it’s a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it’s a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you