As it was my custom since 2010, I would specially post a hymn on the 3rd may of the year.  3rd may had always been a special day in my life.

So far I have shared the following hymns

What A Friend I have In Jesus” – May 3rd 2010
“Thanks to God” – May 3rd 2011
“Day By Day” – May 3rd 2012
“All The Way The Savior Leads Me” – May 3rd 2013
“Guide Me O Thou Great Redeemer” – May 3rd 2014
”Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus” – May 3rd 2015
”Hold Thou My hand” – May 3rd 2016
”My Father Watches Over Me” – May 3rd 2017

It is quite interesting to say that everything around me started to fall apart 2 months after that last post. I can still remember that last happy weekend where I was travelling down Bui Vien street enjoying Vietnamese egg coffee and coconut coffee

From that weekend onwards, peace seem so far away. It was tore away bit by bit.  It started out at work, with projects falling apart, team shrinking. We continue to fight on back at work for the next 6 months, until it it finally led to unemployment.

The only happy thing that came was the birth of my daughter, yet in the midst of that joy. The worry of not being able to find employment and to take care of her looms ominously in your mind. The probability that I may need to be separate from my children are there.

This is on of the times you wish that there are some comfort from God, but you find God awfully silent. Yet instead you are surrounded by misunderstandings, accusations, criticism, and the demands of love, completely isolated and in pain

It is one of these time that you wonder what is the point of holding on. What is the point of enduring? Actually there are plenty of reasons to give up.  But as these thoughts are running through my mind. The song by Prophet Habakkuk was ringing in my mind.

“Though the fig tree may not blossom,
  Nor fruit be on the vines;
  Though the labor of the olive may fail,
  And the fields yield no food;
  Though the flock may be cut off from the fold,
  And there be no herd in the stalls—    
   Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
   I will joy in the God of my salvation.

   The Lord God is my strength; 
  He will make my feet like deer’s feet,
  And He will make me walk on my high hills.” –Habakkuk (Hab 3:17-19)

That is why for this time. I would like to share this hymn                   

I Will Sing
Don Moen

Lord, You seem so far away
A million miles or more, it feels today
And though I haven’t lost my faith
I must confess right now
That it’s hard for me to pray

But I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know where to start
But as You give the grace
With all that’s in my heart

I will sing, yes, I will praise, even in my darkest hour
Through the sorrow and the pain
I will sing, I will praise, lift my hands to honor You
Because Your word is true, I will sing

Lord it’s hard for me to see all the thoughts
And plans You have for me, yes it is
But I will put my trust in You
Lord we made Your die to set me free
Oh thank God You did

But I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know where to start
But as you give the grace
With all that’s in my heart

I will…